► twelfth sketch [Video]

[memorychains]

[The feed opens to the view of Olivine beach, held by its owner as she records the horizon and ocean for a while. It records silence for a few moments before the owner speaks up, sounding hesitant.]

... if you've done something wrong in the past that hurt a lot of people, and every one of them said that it was alright and that they didn't blame you...

... but... you still feel guilty over it...

... how do you go about forgiving yourself?

[There's more silence and then an audible sigh, before there's an elephant trumpet sound, and Namine giggles as a Phanpy clambers and obscures half the view of the camera.]

No, this isn't for playing. Come on.

[The feed cuts off.]

Comments

[video]

[thebelsareinert]

If you don't mind.

[Video] Awww. *has never regretted him taking permanent real-estate in my skull*

[silver-lucifer.livejournal.com]

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I think, if there were any question as to whether you were "a somebody", it wouldn't even be possible for us to have this conversation - and if you're considering things like wanting to change from who and what you used to be, then you're obviously your own individual with your own will.

[dnoteworthy.livejournal.com]

Guilt is one thing that can only be forced away through denial -- but it's a dangerous thing to do.

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[gochuugoku.livejournal.com]

[China sighs deeply.]

Sometimes you feel as though you can never forgive yourself, aru. No matter how hard you try. Your guilt becomes another burden for you to carry.

However, you do not have to carry that burden alone, aru.

[He cracks a smile at that last part.]

[video, private]

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

.. they were ordered to do it. But that doesn't excuse them.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

But... I don't know how...

[Video] ffix is so underappreciated, I wish it had more love

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

[Protip, he looks as feminine as you, Kuja. She smiles a little. She's been more comfortable in opening to people on what she is lately.]

More in a literal sense. The closest I could describe it is that I'm sort of... a copy, of someone else. A literal shadow. My fate is to disappear eventually into that person... or that's what I thought before. Lately though, I've been thinking.... I... want to make my own fate.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I see.

... but you're getting there?

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I'm really, really sorry. We could go back to dry off?

[The Phanpy retreats a little behind Namine. They're naturally shy.]

I haven't thought of a name yet. Beyond naming them after people I know, I haven't thought about what to name them after.

( voice. )

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking for a while too. I just wish that sometimes when I look at my friends, I... don't feel so bad over what I did, because they said so themseles that it was alright. But.... the feeling is still there.

[Video]

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I kind of wish there was. It would make things so much easier.

[video]

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

Job?

[Video]

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I promised myself I'd never do it again, so I'm alright with that. I think I'm just having trouble moving on from blaming myself so much.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I've already caused them enough pain. I don't want them worrying over someone like me.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

Oh, um, sure.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

And what if I make it? What if... I prove that I can be something apart from a witch?

[Video]

[usedfeint.livejournal.com]

I guess... just reminding yourself that beating yourself up over it when your friends have already forgiven you would hurt them? I know if one of my friends did something and I'd already forgiven them, seeing them beat themselves up over it would suck.

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[usedgrassknot.livejournal.com]

No one can forget what they are.

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[her-mouse-jesty.livejournal.com]

Keep moving forward. Think about your future... and what you want to do with it.

( voice. )

[usedrapidspin.livejournal.com]

[ that sounds oddly specific to his dilemma, too. ]

I don't think it's something that anyone can change, regardless of what they say or do. But that doesn't make it any easier.

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[blazing-style.livejournal.com]

That's the spirit. I'm sure you'll do it.

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[uuing]

... There was someone who did something bad to Maria before, and Maria was mad for a little while, but..

Uu-, Maria didn't want to lose her as a friend. So after a while we made it up and it was all alright. It's that easy!

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[madegrowth.livejournal.com]

I like to think I'm at least trying to get there.

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[restardom.livejournal.com]

It doesn't... but if they didn't have a choice, I can't really be mad, either.

[Video]

[freezetheskies.livejournal.com]

If you can change it, and if you think it will make things better...then what's stopping you from trying?

[Besides being here, obviously.]