► twelfth sketch [Video]

[memorychains]

[The feed opens to the view of Olivine beach, held by its owner as she records the horizon and ocean for a while. It records silence for a few moments before the owner speaks up, sounding hesitant.]

... if you've done something wrong in the past that hurt a lot of people, and every one of them said that it was alright and that they didn't blame you...

... but... you still feel guilty over it...

... how do you go about forgiving yourself?

[There's more silence and then an audible sigh, before there's an elephant trumpet sound, and Namine giggles as a Phanpy clambers and obscures half the view of the camera.]

No, this isn't for playing. Come on.

[The feed cuts off.]

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

MM, alright, I'll try it!

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I suppose so.

... thank you for the advice.

[Only almost sixteen years old looking, and she's already discussing things like this. Kind of unsettling huh?]

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

A part of the reason was that they were kind of selfish. They knew what was right and wrong, but chose to do it out of fear and loneliness.

[It's the truth.]

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I know, but...

... every time I think about it, I remember all the things that happened and how it could have been all avoided if I just stood up for myself and did the right thing.

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[her-mouse-jesty.livejournal.com]

How does that help you, Namine?

You can't go back in time. You've fixed what you can. You won't forget it. So... what does thinking about it do? What good does it do anyone?

[she touches Namine's cheek.]

Staying in the past... it won't help you. it won't help anyone. Keep moving forward.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

It might be ambitious, but...

I want to try.

[voice, private]

[usedgrassknot.livejournal.com]

[His voice is almost a purr as he as he try.

Then try. But remember this, Naminé. A witch will always be a witch, and you know what people do to witches.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

... help?

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

Why wouldn't you? You won't even try?

[Video] Kuja is forever my favorite ff villain ):

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

... I used to think before that no, they wouldn't be. I was... told all my existence that I was merely nothing but a shadow of someone myself. I believed it, because I was always alone then.

Being in this place, with all these people, makes me want to believe I can exist a be a somebody.

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If you try too hard, you'll think too much about what happened. The more you think, the more you'll find reasons not to forgive yourself.

[ A pause. ]

You just have to keep moving forward. Move ahead, do what you think's right so you don't make the same mistake. Then one day, you might realize that you don't blame yourself anymore.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

... I know.

It might work out, or it might not. But I want to make the effort. I'm ready for what the future might bring.

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[usedgrassknot.livejournal.com]

Good. We wouldn't want you to end up burned now, would we?

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

... have you forgiven yourself then?

( voice. )

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

It's okay if you don't have an answer. I didn't expect everyone to know too.

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[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

That's what everyone's been telling me. I guess it really might take a while.

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[madegrowth.livejournal.com]

[She's quiet for a few minutes so she can think about it.]

Not....quite yet.

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

Could it be? I mean, it's made by Professor Oak right, and he knows a lot...

[All wet now. He kind of glares at the Phanpy. In a more annoyed fashion than angry]

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

[And that's a happy "Phan!"]

I-I'm so sorry!

[She's wet now too, looking at her pokemon hopelessly.]

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

It's fine. It's hot out anyway, right?

[Sparky'll just go have a chat with Phanpy]

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[usedrapidspin.livejournal.com]

It's something I've been thinking about for a long time, but I still haven't come up with anything. So, I hope you've had better luck than me, at least.

[cagedstar.livejournal.com]

I know, but this isn't probably your idea of cooling off.

[Phanpy waves a trunk in greeting shyly, staying near behind Namine's legs.]

[seasalttwilight.livejournal.com]

I guess not.

[Sparky waves back and waddles a bit closer.]

Have you named it yet?

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[usedfeint.livejournal.com]

...I have no idea. [Ritz is looking thoughtful.] But if they're you're friends, and they care about you, they wouldn't want you to be upset with yourself.

Maybe it's less about forgiveness, and more about learning from it. Figuring out what you did wrong, and why, and never letting yourself do it again.

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[restardom.livejournal.com]

And the rest of the reason?